So a few years ago I met this guy & we clicked instantly. We texted all the time, all day everyday pretty much. Never really fought about anything. We would always joke around &just be silly. Every time he'd have a girlfriend he'd tell me & I would not talk to him as much because I don't want to bother him while he's with his girlfriend. And when he got out of a relationship he'd tell me & our relationship went right back to how it was. He eventually moved to Bukoto & I live in Buziga, all in Kampala.
At first I didn't like him as anything other than a friend but he's told me he's always liked me since we became friends. Maybe a year ago I told him that I like him too. At first he didn't believe me. We've known each other now for almost 5 years so he told me he loves me & I tell him that too.
I fell in love with his personality; he's everything I've always wanted in a guy. I love how he makes me feel like I can talk to him about amusing, he makes me laugh , smile even if we just talk for a few minutes I smile just when I see that he's texted me .
Soon after I told him how I feel things got better but at the same time worse. I could only talk to him on the phone if I asked him to call me, if I called him without telling him he wouldn't answer. We fight a lot which is annoying AF to me because it's over petty things & even if I'm not the one who started the fight or whatever I tell him I'm sorry & it's like he does not care . He only tells me I guess whatever it is that he wants me to know or if I ask him something where in my case I just tell him everything & I never shut up. When he gets mad he just stops talking to me & I always send him like a million messages explaining myself to him & saying sorry over & over again.
About a few weeks ago I found his Facebook & all his pictures where him with this girl but his relationship status was single so I asked him if he had Facebook & he lied and said no so I screenshot his Facebook & Sent it to him & he's like "oh yeah that's my Facebook & I have a girlfriend." Then he goes on to tell me that he loves me & that he didn't plan on telling me that he had girlfriend because he is gonna visit me & was gonna ask me to his girlfriend. So I asked him if he's still gonna visit me & if so will he still be with his girlfriend & he said yes. So I'm just very confused. After he told me all of that i try not to talk to him but its hard .I've been trying to get him on the phone for like a week so we could talk but he won't & when I text him he either says I'm annoying or that I’m bugging him or that he loves me & wants to be my bf very bad. Like how can you love me but have a girlfriend?
I know some of you reading this are probably like why don't you just move on but I have put so much energy into this relationship I'm not just gonna let him go even if I can't have him the way I want I don't believe on giving up on a friendship just because someone has a girlfriend. I don't think he realizes that he has hurt my feelings . I'm OK with being his friend but I just need him to be honest with me & just telling me things .
I know I'm continuing to get my hopes up..I might just be reading too much into it...I know I may be in love with the "idea" of him, though I personally feel that isn't so...every possible outcome I have gone through several times...
What are your thoughts?
